Program
The well-intended seeker descends endless rabbit holes — fixing, upgrading, seeking — never quite landing on the thing that was always already here.
Who This Is For
Perhaps it is so that you've read the books. Spent money on the many courses. Circled or attended the retreats. And somewhere along the way ended up more scattered than when you began.
Somewhere inside there is an instinct, an urge. It beckons — please, let's slow down and breathe. You've heard about meditation. You think — I'll buy this new book. I'll learn about Buddhism. I'll attend a retreat.
Here's the thing: you are not broken. You don't need to be fixed. You're not behind. Your nervous system simply hasn't been prepared for what vipassana will ask of it.
That's what GMTV is for.
Investment
Founding Client Rate | $500/month
The first five clients walk this path with me at $500/month. You're not buying a finished program here — you're helping to shape one. Your lived experience through these 26 weeks becomes part of what GMTV is.
Six months. Two sessions per week. Everything else you need to know is below.
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Why Six Months
WHY SIX MONTHS? WHY NOT JUST SHOW UP AND SIT?
During a 10-day Goenka vipassana retreat, you're not just sitting quietly observing your breath. You're systematically scanning your entire body — feeling every sensation, without reaction. There is minimal movement and distraction. Just pure, sustained attention on what's actually here.
And what's here? Sankhāras. Energetic impressions stored in the fascia of your body — trauma, stress, unprocessed emotion, ancestral patterns. Vipassana doesn't theorize about these patterns. It releases them.
Here's what needs to be said: your nervous system isn't designed to process a lifetime of accumulated material in a single sitting. When sankhāras release too rapidly without adequate capacity, the system becomes overwhelmed — retraumatization, dissociation, panic.
I learned this the hard way:
Kundalini activation in Costa Rica — Powerful energy without preparation. Left me chaotic for months.
Qi circulation errors in China — Energy I couldn't ground. Splitting headaches. No guidance.
Shamanic journeying in Bali — Opened portals I wasn't embodied enough to navigate. Destabilized for months.
I sought transcendence without the capacity to integrate what arose, and I was unprepared.
Six months gives your nervous system time to down-regulate from chronic stress, build capacity to feel difficult emotions without collapsing, and develop the foundation so that when sankhāras release, you have a container strong enough to hold the process.
This isn't about being spiritually ready. It's about nervous system capacity.
GMTV is that training.
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The Program
THE TWENTY-SIX WEEK ARC
Six months. Each month builds capacity your nervous system needs before sitting for ten days in silence.
MONTH 1: FOUNDATION, REST, EMPTINESS
| Foundation. Down-regulation. Learning to sit with what is. Understanding the meaning of nothing done needs to be undone. Daily ractice rhythm established.
MONTH 2: NERVOUS SYSTEM, BODY AWARENESS, SEEING | Capacity building. Body awareness. Watching what moves across the emptiness. Intensity enters through cold and breath.
MONTH 3: SHADOW INTEGRATION & RELATIONSHIPS | How we relate to the world. The patterns that show up — the core wounds we carry — become visible. Integration work deepens.
MONTH 4: PHILOSOPHICAL FOUNDATION S | Study expands. Watts departs, Pema Chödrön enters. The practices continue while our minds sharpen, our capacity to feel deepens, and we begin to understand why vipassana.
MONTH 5: PURPOSE & PROSPERITY | Life's Work and material reality. How the preparation translates beyond the cushion into how we move through the world.
MONTH 6: PREPARATION FOR DISSOLUTION | Everything consolidates. Practices stabilize. The foundation is complete. You're ready for ten days in silence.
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HOW IT ACTUALLY WORKS
Daily (30-45 minutes + journal):
FLOW | Qigong (15-30 min) - beginner friendly qigong (can explore 3 different techniques), to clear our energy channels and prepare us for the day ahead
STILL | Sitting meditation (systematic progression) - we build the foundation, develop awareness of the breath, begin to reclaim our attention
ACTIVATE | Cold exposure (systematic progression) - slow build, we begin by turning the water to cold after our warm showers. Getting used to discomfort
ACTIVATE | Breathwork (enters Month 2) - discovering and practicing both activating and regulating techniques
INTEGRATE | Journal (5 - 10 min) - unique journal system designed specifically for this program. Systematic daily tracking to track patterns and discuss during sessions
CONTEMPLATE | Study time (varies) - specialized texts, Watts and Chödrön, synchronistic studies aligned with weekly itineraries. Gene Keys for personalized shadow mapping and gift transformation understandings
Weekly:
Tuesday 1:1 sessions | 90 minutes
We ground together, breathe together, then explore. What showed up in the practices this week? Where did the body speak louder than the mind? What pattern became visible that wasn't visible before? These aren't instructional sessions. They're witnessing sessions. You're doing the work in the daily practices and in the Tuesday sessions we deep dive into what is arising. Patterns become more clear when you speak them out loud and have someone mirror them back at you.
Friday 1:1 check-ins | 30 minutes
Shorter. More surgical. How's the week landing? What's working? What's not? Is something trying to surface that needs attention before next Tuesday? These aren't optional comfort calls, they’re here to reveal things and help you digest them. Some of them need addressing in real-time. If nothing arises, we connect and practice something together.
What You Receive Each Week:
Customized Weekly Itinerary - Your roadmap for the week. Specific practice instructions, 5 Elements breakdown, study materials, journal prompts. Everything you need to focus on during the week, and why.
Gene Keys Contemplation Guide - 2-page deep dive into the specific Gene Key you're working with that week, tied to your own personal chart. Shadow recognition, gift activation, contemplation prompts that land in the body. This is surgical mapping of your actual patterns, both conscious and unconscious. The program stored in your very DNA.
These aren't generic. They're built for the week you're in, the capacity you're building, the activation you're ready for.
The GMTV Five Elements
GMTV doesn't teach five separate practices. It trains your nervous system through five energetic movements that cycle daily until the pattern changes the very structure of your DNA.
This is inspired by the Chinese five elements — Wood, Water, Fire, Metal, Earth — but not as substances, rather as phases. Energy movements that transform and impact the next. Each practice corresponds to one of these movements. Together they create a complete cycle that repeats across twenty-six weeks. By the time you arrive for your vipassana sitting, your body will know this rhythm without thinking.
FLOW is qigong. Fifteen to twenty minutes of moving meditation. Energy circulation. Body moving with awareness and presence. This corresponds to Wood—expansion, circulation, awakening. It prepares you to sit by teaching movement first. This is work for our fascia, our energy channels, and qigong works to stretch, energize, clear, and release the tensions that are stored in our bodies.
STILL is sitting meditation, the foundation of vipassana. We notice the sensation of breath at our nostrils. Notice our minds drift, gently returning our awareness to the sensation of the breath. Ten minutes at the start, twenty by the end of Month 2. Sixty by the time you do your sitting. This is Water—depth, receptivity, formlessness, the return point. Everything else in the program moves. This practice doesn’t, it’s the mountain that weather crosses without changing.
ACTIVATE is cold exposure and breathwork. Thirty seconds of cold water that extends to forty-five, two minutes, five - whatever your body calls for. Three rounds of Wim Hof style breath holds. Pranayama techniques to calm the mind when agitated. This is Fire—intensity, transformation, testing under pressure. It reveals what sitting can't through activation by circulating our life-force energy, qi. This will put your nervous system under actual stress, a certain intensity you can't think your way out of. This practice teaches: discomfort doesn't equal danger. You can stay and witness when the mind wants to flee.
CONTEMPLATE is study and shadow work. Alan Watts pointing underneath thinking. Gene Keys showing what's running unconsciously. Pema Chödrön later, naming what the body already knows. This is Metal —seeing clearly, cutting through illusion, and refining. It brings awareness to what the body already knows and feels. What you can see clearly loses power over you. We view the mask, we see that we have been hiding from ourselves all along.
INTEGRATE is journaling and sessions. Five to ten minutes each evening tracking what happened throughout the day and in the practices. Ninety minutes Tuesday, thirty minutes Friday with me. This is Earth — grounding, metabolizing, centering, completing the cycle. The other four practices generate experience. This one grounds it into your nervous system. Transformation happens through observing, witnessing, and metabolizing.
Each movement creates the next. Flow prepares you for Still. Still reveals capacity for Activate. Activate generates material for Contemplate. Contemplate requires Integrate to become embodied. Integrate informs the next Flow. The cycle repeats. Daily, for twenty-six weeks.
By the time you arrive at your ten day vipassana sitting, this will no longer just be something you do each day, it will be how your system operates. The preparation isn't separate from vipassana. It's vipassana training happening at a pace your nervous system can actually metabolize.
That's the five elements of GMTV. Not building blocks you stack, rather movements you cycle through until they're embedded in the code of your DNA.
Investment
Ready?
Founding Client Rate | $500/month First five clients only. After that, the price reflects what the program is actually worth.
What you receive: 26 weeks of preparation. Five daily practices. Weekly 90-minute sessions and Friday check-ins. Personalized weekly itinerary. Gene Keys contemplation guide built from your chart. Access to someone who's walked this path.
This isn't information. It's transmission. Companionship through dissolution.
If you're ready, you'll know. If you're not sure — that's useful information too.
Fundraising
Taking two weeks off work for personal growth isn't easy — especially in the US.
If you need unpaid leave to attend your retreat, we can work together to create fundraising opportunities through your network. This can cover:
Your costs while away
GMTV program fees
A donation to the vipassana center where you'll sit
You're not doing this alone.